"Don’t worry. When you are faced with hardship, you know God is with you. Worry when you are too happy.."
That’s when I prayed to be shown that He is with me. And indeed I was given the curse of Inner-Peace, adversity. To remind me where I truly belong; on the ground…
And then I felt whole again.
"No sugar, right?" He asked, as he set the tray in front of her.
“Yeah…” She answered as she picked up the paper cup, sighting no sign of sugar sachets on the tray. It wasn’t a question, it was reassurance that he knows.
A shy smile made its way onto her face.
He remembers. He remembers how I take my tea…
It’s silly she thinks back. Something so small as to whether or not she has sugar with her tea, could fill her tummy with butterflies.
When I care about someone and give them my whole heart, the chances of me lying to them, would be so close to impossible.
But when I don’t give a rat’s shit about you, you can expect me to tell you that I am a long lost descendant of The Great Queen Victoria with such conviction that you would believe it.
"The book I gave, is for you to vent out your stress, your anger,
your happiness and your joy…
Every time you stop writing and close the book, you close a chapter (in your life) and you move on. As that matter becomes a memory, it pushes you more the next day…
When you end school, when you read back…
Let that book show you how much you have been through, to earn what you want…”
Sometimes the best of gifts and the best of words come at the most unexpected timing. Especially from you.
My dear, dear, you…
From the first time we talked to the first time you told me you love me, every little thing that you do to make me happiest, has been a surprise.
The book and those words, mean so much more to me than you could ever know. Especially knowing that both require something in you, that is unexplainably hard for you to show.
Expression and depth is something you’ve always had, it’s just buried too deep inside you, that it takes so much effort for you to dig it out.
Ergo, to receive something that required your thoughts and sentiment, along with those words, removed almost all of my insecurities.
You have brought out the best in me, and I would like to believe I have done the same, to you too.
We are both so flawed, so broken, that we fit each other so well.
I hope and pray that this would last for us. Not just now, not just in the future. But forever.
Let this be the one for me,